Positive

Well people, after three negative pregnancy tests, it turns out I am pregnant after all. Man, all this up and down stuff has really been playing with my emotions. It was cute and exciting at first. Now I am thinking "What have we done?" I know that is just a stage. Don't get me wrong, I am actually very excited. But I am nervous about announcing it so soon. I just knew that we could not keep it from Emma even if we tried. That girl has a knack for knowing every one's business. And once we told our kids it would be out in a flash. So, we are announcing it with me being only 5 weeks along.

Here is how we told the kids:

We called for a family council and asked them what they thought we were going to discuss. They all thought we were going to talk about a summer trip to Cali. Then Eva blurted out, "You're having a baby!" I paused for a minute, trying not to acknowledge what she just said. I mentioned that I actually had some bad news. This bad news would effect either Ben or Ella. I said that one of them is going to have to share a room with a new baby pretty soon.

They all started screaming and shouting for joy. It was a moment I will remember forever. I glanced over at Ben and noticed he wasn't participating. He just had a blank stare on his face. I asked him what he was thinking and he proceeded to tell us with a heavy, quivering lip. "What if it's another girl?"

I told him that was a possibility, but to think about Beau. Beau is his cousin who has four sisters and no brothers. I reminded Ben that when Beau found out about Sadie being a girl he cried and cried and was heartbroken. But now he loves Sadie and wouldn't trade her for anything. If it is a girl, at least he'll have Beau to lean on.

Ella has already told me her opinions for names if it's a girl. Brittany or Ethany. I am surprised her choices aren't Kaypree or Kaisha.

Emma's hoping for either twins or a baby with special needs.

Eva just can't stop smiling and saying "I can't believe your pregnant!"

Lee, of course, is THRILLED!

Now, I just have to wrap my mind around the fact that it is going to be a Christmas baby...